Manipulative Deal Breakers, and why Long it took me to give up on my Co-Dependent Relationship.

I Didn't Realize I was Being Co-Dependent.

Watching  YouTube Videos on Toxic Relationships, YouTube actually Saved me from continuing on in a Co_Dependent Toxic Relationship. 

I was Dating someone who would never take the Blame for any kind of Mistake made, 

I was angry, Broke up with him.. He's 45 and I'm 38.. 

I think I broke up with him throughout the Month at least 5 times from his Toxic Behavior, Stemming from several insecurities that he had, and they seemed to be piling up with everything that went wrong..  I felt like we weren't' really growing anywhere Real when it came to respect. 

How he had emotionally Lashed out on me every time he felt the need as if it was the Norm.. 

I already have a History of Abusive type relationships throughout my Life, That should have been the Red Flag Warning that almost every other Guy that I've Dated had a Simular Personality Trait that was somewhat abusive, and this was a result from a Dysfunctional upbringing.

 My Dad and My Mom separated when I was 5, I knew that my life wasn't going to be the Same.. My Dad wasn't the Best of Partners.. My Dad Argued a lot.. 

and So did the Guy I was Dating, He somehow lost his temper whenever there was something going wrong with him, and he made it so that he Coul not' be corrected in any way..

That was the Deal Breaker, Especially when I read the Book "Deal Breakers" and my Ex fell under the Category as the Man without Fault, This Book really gave me the Right in Depth insight on what type of Character I was REally Dealing with! 

The Whole list was Checked off, and there were some very real Moments I had to Internalize because it was Me who was being treated Badly.. I had to really Check myself, My self Esteem Levels had Plummeted somewhere, and I ran into this Guy who Sells Papers, I had every Warning in the World that he was too Insecure for me. 

Low and Behold the Year didn't' even Start Right for us Last Year, and he pretty Much Screwed up Valentines Day because I didn't' Spent the night with him. 

I made the Mistake of making him a Lover when in Fact, He should've just Stayed a friend.